On the Eid day, we threw a big party at our 'big' house. Yes the word 'big' matters a lot in the kind of social and political circles that my In laws inspire to be a strong part of. There were the usual suspects at the party, with lots of 'Qurbani' meat going around to keep everybody happy. I am not going to name any particular people but as you can guess there were a few notables elites with their proud and snobbish wives/bitches. Hey, what's the different any way? I can pretend with this lot and have kind of gotten used to their materialism. I am good at playing the proverbial Roman in Rome.
The highlight of the evening for me was this bachelor guy. He was a cutie and there were a number of looks exchanged between me and him. I ended up fantasizing about him while i pleased myself this afternoon in my bed. I am very sensual and visual and he certainly got my imagination worked up. The way he looked at me - it was a very see through look. I hope to see him more at another party that my husband would be throwing up this weekend. I don't know if i would have the courage to go up to him, but if he initiates a conversation i would most certainly oblige him.
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
Tuesday, December 9, 2008
Miserable home visit
Meri maan bechaari itni badbakht kiyoun hai..
Some people are born unlucky i guess..
I only exacerbate her woes with my stupid remarks..
I feel sad..I went home for lunch and got into a minor argument with mom when she was nagging me about her application disposal and i was just getting irritated...Even after all these years and all of us getting married ,somethings just remain the same..I did not say anything nasty to her, just that i don't feel like coming home and i guess she felt very bad about that and now i feel pretty bad as well but than my years with my parents were just like that..
Honestly, i don't feel like going home at times to visit parents..I feel like running away from all that baggage and misery which has been compounded year after year on us by mom and dad..They were a complete failure with each other and somehow i still bear these childhood scars..
Honestly, i think i just need a break from them..I just feel depressed and powerless..
The way we hurt each other is astounding, yet sometimes i feel so frustrated in her presence..
I tolerate such nuisance from Husband yet when it comes to Mom i seem to have little patience..
Maybe i don't know how to take care of mom who depends on me yet I irk from the responsibility and it actually scares me..
Anyways, i feel really sad, guilty and depressed..Mom really knows how to make you feel guilty, but i guess after all these years being married to such a selfish person as my dad can take its toll..
People you love the most end up hurting you the most. I guess that is basic truth of human relationships..
Some people are born unlucky i guess..
I only exacerbate her woes with my stupid remarks..
I feel sad..I went home for lunch and got into a minor argument with mom when she was nagging me about her application disposal and i was just getting irritated...Even after all these years and all of us getting married ,somethings just remain the same..I did not say anything nasty to her, just that i don't feel like coming home and i guess she felt very bad about that and now i feel pretty bad as well but than my years with my parents were just like that..
Honestly, i don't feel like going home at times to visit parents..I feel like running away from all that baggage and misery which has been compounded year after year on us by mom and dad..They were a complete failure with each other and somehow i still bear these childhood scars..
Honestly, i think i just need a break from them..I just feel depressed and powerless..
The way we hurt each other is astounding, yet sometimes i feel so frustrated in her presence..
I tolerate such nuisance from Husband yet when it comes to Mom i seem to have little patience..
Maybe i don't know how to take care of mom who depends on me yet I irk from the responsibility and it actually scares me..
Anyways, i feel really sad, guilty and depressed..Mom really knows how to make you feel guilty, but i guess after all these years being married to such a selfish person as my dad can take its toll..
People you love the most end up hurting you the most. I guess that is basic truth of human relationships..
Monday, December 8, 2008
Peshawar on the brink
Peshawar is well on its way to becoming another Kabul. The reach of the Taliban is very well within Peshawar. Journalists used to go to the tribal badlands to get the news stories about Taliban. Now they can get it int he provincial capital, Peshawar. The kidnappings and killings have become a routine part of the city. ANP, the provincial government is fast losing support. Already, checkpoints resembling the green zone in Baghdad have been setup. YES, it has become this bad!
I am sorry but i refuse to believe that this is being done without some sort of a tacit support from the ISI or 'rogue' elements within it. I think it is very clear by now that the Gennie is well outside the box. The army high command is in this fight against terrorism with all its wits, yet it has not been successful because clearly the intelligence is not there. Pakistan has lost the most and is in danger of losing more unless this is contained. India has never had the guts to cross the international border, rather its the religious fanatics part of the Jihad factories created by the Military establishment with the consent of the Americans that is a existential threat to Pakistan. Clearly, the danger lies on our western border as opposed to the east front.
The solution lies in the departure of the Americans from the region which will definitely help. Secondly, one agency which can tackle this spreading cancerous is the ISI - the very agency responsible for the creation of this Frankenstein monster.
OTHERWISE - the establishment should know that these people have the power and the capacity to cross the Indus and march onto Islamabad itself!
I am sorry but i refuse to believe that this is being done without some sort of a tacit support from the ISI or 'rogue' elements within it. I think it is very clear by now that the Gennie is well outside the box. The army high command is in this fight against terrorism with all its wits, yet it has not been successful because clearly the intelligence is not there. Pakistan has lost the most and is in danger of losing more unless this is contained. India has never had the guts to cross the international border, rather its the religious fanatics part of the Jihad factories created by the Military establishment with the consent of the Americans that is a existential threat to Pakistan. Clearly, the danger lies on our western border as opposed to the east front.
The solution lies in the departure of the Americans from the region which will definitely help. Secondly, one agency which can tackle this spreading cancerous is the ISI - the very agency responsible for the creation of this Frankenstein monster.
OTHERWISE - the establishment should know that these people have the power and the capacity to cross the Indus and march onto Islamabad itself!
Politics
If i have not told mentioned it here, i am part of a political family...
It was for years ruling this part of the country, not very long ago..
Times have changed, but for the privileged few things remain the same..
I am married in a political family...After Musharraf opened the doors for woman's role in
politics by putting in place the quota system..Many well do to political families began to maintain their
monopoly in the national assembly by sending in their daughters, wives, sisters to these seats..
But not all news is bad news..I can vouch for a lot of good women MNAs in the national assembly...
They are young, immature at times but motivated to do something..
The rewards will be forthcoming in the future if not anytime soon..
I am not an elected, member - never wanted to be...
But i am a administrator at the city level for my party..
I like the work, but sometimes it gets tedious...
This is one reason that i might be ranting political stuff on this blog..
Btw, HAPPY EID to everyone reading this..Enjoy it with your family but don't over stuff
yourself with all that meat..
It was for years ruling this part of the country, not very long ago..
Times have changed, but for the privileged few things remain the same..
I am married in a political family...After Musharraf opened the doors for woman's role in
politics by putting in place the quota system..Many well do to political families began to maintain their
monopoly in the national assembly by sending in their daughters, wives, sisters to these seats..
But not all news is bad news..I can vouch for a lot of good women MNAs in the national assembly...
They are young, immature at times but motivated to do something..
The rewards will be forthcoming in the future if not anytime soon..
I am not an elected, member - never wanted to be...
But i am a administrator at the city level for my party..
I like the work, but sometimes it gets tedious...
This is one reason that i might be ranting political stuff on this blog..
Btw, HAPPY EID to everyone reading this..Enjoy it with your family but don't over stuff
yourself with all that meat..
Sunday, December 7, 2008
December
December is here and it is getting cold.
The day was good..Husband was in his good moods which meant just one thing; humping and pumping between my legs..
Just goes to show how selfish men are by nature..
The sex was good if not mind blowing..I was thinking of the wild stuff while he was inside me...
These are just the random thoughts of the day..
I don't know how descriptive i have to be about my sex life or the actual encounters..
My thought process and how i express myself is evolving as this blog evolves. Feedback would obviously help.
The day was good..Husband was in his good moods which meant just one thing; humping and pumping between my legs..
Just goes to show how selfish men are by nature..
The sex was good if not mind blowing..I was thinking of the wild stuff while he was inside me...
These are just the random thoughts of the day..
I don't know how descriptive i have to be about my sex life or the actual encounters..
My thought process and how i express myself is evolving as this blog evolves. Feedback would obviously help.
Friday, December 5, 2008
Mumbai attacks - A view point
Below is an interesting analysis of the Mumbai attacks. I am still forming not sure about what went down there. Read and reflect us with your opinion.
5 Points That Destroy India's Latest Fairytale5 Points That Destroy India's Latest Fairytale
By FIDA MARVAT
Tuesday, 2 December 2008
PESHAWAR, Pakistan—In 1988, Indian Navy and commandos took only 24 hours to storm Mamoon Abdul Quyum's palace in the Maldives when it was taken over by rebels and eliminated the rebels within another 24 hours.
But in Mumbai, it took India 60 hours to eliminate ten terrorists equipped only with KKs. The entire drama seems to be well scripted like Bollywood/Hollywood movies. On one side they blame ISI for planning, executing the whole episode and on the other hand they blame ISI for committing silly mistakes and leaving behind incriminating evidence to be picked up by the Indian intelligence so it could find easy links to Karachi/Pakistan.
Some other Indian lies include:
1.. Indians failed to detect movement of the alleged merchant ship from Karachi and then its off loading of passengers at high sea.
2.. These 10 daredevils traveled in rubber dinghies up to Bombay shores unnoticed. Was the Indian coastal defense system asleep?
3.. The terrorists waded through the marshes of Bombay coastline, reached the road network, hijacked police vehicles, divided themselves in three groups and then headed for their targets in the posh localities of Bombay, and EVERYTHING GOES UNNOTICED.
4.. Like precision guided missiles these terrorists reach their targets and take over heavily guarded two 5-star hotels, dodging the security system of the entire city of Bombay and the internal security system of these 5-star hotels and the Jewish center also.
5.. They fight it out with Indian commandos for 3 days and all but one is killed. The Indians claim that he is ISI sponsored. If we believe the Indian storyline, it defies logic. How can a professional spy agency like ISI commit the following mistakes:
1.. Sailing the terrorist off from Karachi. Why not Dubai, Chittagong or Eden for better deception?
2.. Credit cards of Pakistani origin in their pockets. Do the suicide bombers carry the IDs in their pockets?
3.. Their Pakistani Punjabi ascent. The first lesson given to intelligence operators is to adapt to local environments. If such an operation was planned by Pakistan and ISI, the operatives would have known that they would have to communicate/ negotiate with the hostages and others and hence would have concealed this giveaway sign.
I leave to the readers to decide if Indian lies are white or black.
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5 Points That Destroy India's Latest Fairytale5 Points That Destroy India's Latest Fairytale
By FIDA MARVAT
Tuesday, 2 December 2008
PESHAWAR, Pakistan—In 1988, Indian Navy and commandos took only 24 hours to storm Mamoon Abdul Quyum's palace in the Maldives when it was taken over by rebels and eliminated the rebels within another 24 hours.
But in Mumbai, it took India 60 hours to eliminate ten terrorists equipped only with KKs. The entire drama seems to be well scripted like Bollywood/Hollywood movies. On one side they blame ISI for planning, executing the whole episode and on the other hand they blame ISI for committing silly mistakes and leaving behind incriminating evidence to be picked up by the Indian intelligence so it could find easy links to Karachi/Pakistan.
Some other Indian lies include:
1.. Indians failed to detect movement of the alleged merchant ship from Karachi and then its off loading of passengers at high sea.
2.. These 10 daredevils traveled in rubber dinghies up to Bombay shores unnoticed. Was the Indian coastal defense system asleep?
3.. The terrorists waded through the marshes of Bombay coastline, reached the road network, hijacked police vehicles, divided themselves in three groups and then headed for their targets in the posh localities of Bombay, and EVERYTHING GOES UNNOTICED.
4.. Like precision guided missiles these terrorists reach their targets and take over heavily guarded two 5-star hotels, dodging the security system of the entire city of Bombay and the internal security system of these 5-star hotels and the Jewish center also.
5.. They fight it out with Indian commandos for 3 days and all but one is killed. The Indians claim that he is ISI sponsored. If we believe the Indian storyline, it defies logic. How can a professional spy agency like ISI commit the following mistakes:
1.. Sailing the terrorist off from Karachi. Why not Dubai, Chittagong or Eden for better deception?
2.. Credit cards of Pakistani origin in their pockets. Do the suicide bombers carry the IDs in their pockets?
3.. Their Pakistani Punjabi ascent. The first lesson given to intelligence operators is to adapt to local environments. If such an operation was planned by Pakistan and ISI, the operatives would have known that they would have to communicate/ negotiate with the hostages and others and hence would have concealed this giveaway sign.
I leave to the readers to decide if Indian lies are white or black.
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Insomniac
I have not been able to sleep well..I am official an insomniac..The nights are restless..
It helps when the husband gives me sexual satisfaction other wise i just stay awake..
I will write as things become more clear in my mind...
I don't know if reading about my life gives you any kind of satisfaction, dear reader but i am happy to oblige you..
Will write more later..
--
Bob Dole - "The internet is a great way to get on the net."
It helps when the husband gives me sexual satisfaction other wise i just stay awake..
I will write as things become more clear in my mind...
I don't know if reading about my life gives you any kind of satisfaction, dear reader but i am happy to oblige you..
Will write more later..
--
Bob Dole - "The internet is a great way to get on the net."
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